Once again, on Saturday night I'm alone. Just me, the computer and my mind that's wandering off else where. I did everything that I neglected for a week. I checked my friendster, uploaded new pic, wrote new postings on blogger and zorpia, worked on some of blog's templates so that i can have comments coming in, sorted my emails, downloaded some up beat songs, made a compilation for didit and irfan, up dated windows media player.. phew almost everything i guess...

there's a couple of things that pops out of my mind. first, i cant imagine what i'll do when i finally work during my 3 months vacation. i mean, i cant hang out as often as i do now with my campus friends. secondly, if i finally gonna work, i dont think i have the ability that is needed for the job. i mean, i understand mainly small stuff, and i cant do big things. so what exactly i can do? need to find that out. thirdly, i wonder when is the appropriate time to watch those darn movies for PKA? none of the gank is excited to come early and watch it together somewhere.

i'm listening to Paolo Santos' Real thing. I did think about what it says in the lyrics. And accidently, I found the answers. Right under my nose... that someone is a trully someone.. He's Lord God Almighty. And for all these days, I've been forgetting Him, yet .. He never forget about me, not even a second.

"Not even a sparrow, worth less than a penny, can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it...you are more valuable to him than a whole flock of sparrows." // Matthew 10:29-31

God values me so much that He watches over me no matter where I am or what I am doing. This truly is wonderful, too wonderful to believe.

Sometimes I wonder why a person can be romantic, even if they didnt mean to be romantic. I mean one of the thing that's romantic doesn't concern the relationship between man and woman plainly, but there's just something more to it. something more universal, more majestical, more mysterious, but you can only feel it presence in a vauge impression.

For example, ME. I write this posting, and I can feel myself in some romantic stage, coz the real me might never write these kinds of words and thoughts. The real me, which everybody looks at it as an ordinary girl with cartoon faced, and a silly attitude. There's no way in those position I would be able to write all of this. But then again, when I reach this particular point, I can be a romantic person with thoughts and feelings brought up from my writings. i can dive into the inner self of every human being once they're created. The basic program which God placed, LOVE. Love in a different kind of mood, different kind of way, different kind of view, different kind of interpretations. And yet, this love feels more secure than any ohter love we know. It doesn't hurt. It doesn't lust, It doesn't show any ego whatsoever. It's pure, gentle, fragile, but strong. :D

Good Grief!! I like this!!! xD